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My breathing had been shallow, andback from this, not if I stepped forward We both knew that He aiting for me to make the first move Because he didn’t want to be the hter So, after a handful of seconds drinking hi at the rapid rise and fall of his chest, the hardness of his jaw and the noticeable bulge in his jeans, I stepped forward

“We fucked on the living rooht of thethe feel of him inside me

“It was the middle of the day,” I continued “There were people around, close, there’s no privacy in a trailer park But I didn’t care I fucking loved it”

Joshua had been prepared It wasn’t a ht a condom with hiirlfriend’s teenage daughter

His body was granite underneath me, he hadn’t spoken the entire tiusted hiive him what he wanted To please him

“Did it hurt?” his voice was low, scratchy, masculine I felt it in my pussy

“A little,” I adht there on the floor Pushed upskirt and made me scream He found a pillow to cover ate To stop us”

I sed, , not just fro all of this out loud for the first tis, secret shames you kept inside, hid fro to be nors you didn’t share defined you Your secrets shaped you And when you shared the out thethem on a platter

It was giving someone the power to destroy you

And this was a stranger One I didn’t even know the naiven anyone

“It went on for months,” I said, my voice little more than a rasp “He kept up with ht with her He stayed to be arounddinner So he could fuck me in my bedroom with me on all fours while mom went to the store”

I sucked in an uneven breath “I wish I could say it stopped because I was overco to my mother But that wasn’t it I felt so But even that sickening feeling turned ot too attached I wanted a new challenge So else Someone else He broke it off with my mom as soon as I made that clear”

She had cried for days It was then I felt the guilt It overcame me to the point I wanted to tear off my own skin just to escape er, hurt ain, hurt someone I loved—the only person I loved—in order to satisfy my needs

“One of the cheerleaders’ fathers was next,” I said “He was e was in title only Heran affair with her tennis coach, apparently It didn’t takesure to let him knoanted hi more and more brash I followed hi up Followed hiht in He bent me over the sink”

I lickedthe dishes clang and the slap of skin against skin, his fingers biting intoa condom I’d slipped it in my pocket before I’d left, prepared and ready for as to come

“The secret, ot out, because no one wanted to broadcast that they were fucking an underage girl They all had too rew out of that,different”