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His eyes flared, and his finger slowly moved out
“I like to be hued I like it when you come all over me I love it whenelse on raded Told what to do I like to be dominated”
I said all of this with a rough rasp, quickly, with a faux kind of confidence that I hoped was convincing I’d never said it all at once before With the reed upon I was insulated by the shadows of the community There was no need for conversation, we’d already checked all the necessary boxes, been paired together by experts who had signed NDAs
In the real world, in the sunlight, the words, the needs … they shriveled into so at odds with the persona I presented
The needs didn’t go away, though Even after I’d left the club and that part offor it I’d tried with Pete, gentlyas uy’s dreairlfriend liked to be tied up and fucked in the ass But then when it got more real, a fuck of a lot less vanilla, he balked
He pretended it didn’t bother hi his hted at my kinks He liked to think of himself as adventurous, sexually and otherwise Certainly, theto do a lot more than the woman wantedin conventional relationships, at least
But that was all just for show Most s they’d like to do to their wives or girlfriends, but the second those women offered it up, they ran scared
And a fearful erous, combative, desperate to lay the blame and shame on the women who presented them with evidence of how flimsy their manhood was
Pete gave estions that I o to therapy I’d pursed e to screa, cowardly narcissist he was, and sain, and we both pretended I never asked for anything in the first place
With him, this ave it all to me Took it from me
Though I sensed I may not be safe with him in other ways, I knew my darkest secrets were safe here
He was silent after I spoke, waiting For more For the root of all of this Because no one nors I wanted Thisit known he didn’t just want my body He’d taken that Owned it And it was clear toto stop with uarded my secrets as I had for decades Could’ve left I wasn’t tied to the bed Not yet
But instead of doing all of that, I spoke