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I have been trying to convinceUnfortunately, there’s no one remotely interested in that lie In fact, the people that are close to me and now, those that aren’t even in this real to deny I’m in love

I can’t believe it either Every time I look in the mirror, or read my father’s prayer journal, or allow that still voice to speak, the same phrase comes up “You’re in love with her” For a while, I tried to pretend I didn’t knohat her the voice was talking about But, I can’t deny that either I’ it is because it’s a foreign feeling for me

I’, I’ve been…let’s just say, I found it very easy to ee Yes, I’ve been with quite a feomen However, I never loved any of the her Looking back on the debris of that relationship, I’ to settle

She didn’t loveeverything I could think of to convince her to stay I can’t believe how grateful I aested it was tian Grant, I would have locked up my life with a woman who only saw me as a mediocre man with a fat wallet I know she said she adht we broke up, thanks to the very expensive wine, she let her true feelings shine She didn’t want me without the powerful job

If she only knew the truth about randfather’s offer

Every , when I sit down and read ued by his words, “I pray You send hi about Chantal She was the complete opposite of my mother However, Gabriella and ht my mother’s lack of interest or non-interest in round To a degree it was After reading e as me She didn’t care about the money All she cared about was his character, his heart, and his spirit

He wrote that he never knew or understood love until he opened himself up to her Once he let his walls down and shared who he really was deep down, his feelings for her were more powerful than any sexual experience he had ever had Now, I understand soht Chantal home to meet them He pulled me to the side and asked, “Does she make you see theto hear a sermon However, when I’m with Gabriella, I understand his question She makes me see who I was destined to be

I can’t believe I overslept That’s a joke I think I got twentythat resembled sleep The Gabriella dreams were already bad But now I havelived out in my subconscious I need sleep My body and s off with Gabriella, and hope for a good night’s sleep But that’s a joke Then I would be up all night kicking o

I walked into an reading

I cannot believe I’ve lasted as long as I have I reement with Elizabeth which I never expected to have to live out this long When she confessed how old-fashioned she is, I was startled In this e, I was shocked to discover the woin That was al as her pronouncement that she was prepared to walk away from me, if I couldn’t respect her decision

Funny, she used the word respect I have nothing but respect for her I see a future with her and I a I never have…court a woman by her rules I sense the payoff will far exceed any te You withwoman Amen

Wow I got a chill It was like having ht there with me To know he chose toI sipped

I did not think I was going to physically survive this dating paradigm Elizabeth presented me The first couple of months were horrendous I’hts or lances and gentle touches help However, it is the dreaue both my conscious and unconscious mind So she was lying next to me, only to discover, I’m alone

I have tried everything, but nothing works I have resolved myself to the simple fact that she is in et the rest I deserve Co for

What the crap! How could he just leave it like that I stood up and started pacing and stopped in front of the floor-to-ceiling , and did so I hadn’t done in years