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I looked overmhmm
Werecrossed?
Was he here to talk to —no, but it was daet my hopes up
Right about noished I could write him a letter Do you like me? With a checkbox for yes or no And what the hell happened when he found out I was TLG? Hoould he feel knowing I’d ditched him and run away and hidden, just like I wanted to do now? He’d probably hate ain
Writing him those letters had set a part of ive voice to before With a big bottle of wine and so I wanted to do to hi to be that open about a part of ht and buried under three layers of clothes
After the first few letters, I hadn’t needed the wine to write the words His letters—the fact that he’d actually replied—had been all the fuel I’d needed
And Ibits ofhi to, or a new place I’d explored in the city
But then the whole thing with Alexis and the cake happened and I knew I had to end it, because daydrea my hopes up that someone was into me and that was never the way it turned out And, yes, he showed up atdown on whatever I pulled out of the oven and keeping me company now that Elle had moved out We were friends It eet that he didn’t wantaround the house all by myself
And noout of the cabinets with his biceps bunching, or stretching and showing off a happy trail I’d be more than happy to follow, I had to keep all that on lockdown and pent up inside
He hadn’t stopped whatever casual on-and-off again thing he had going on with Alexis, so hoas real-lifeto compete with the on-paper vixen persona I’d crafted?
He had groupies—ones ould runthemselves at him all the time Beautiful, skinny woo pro and there’d be wo for his attention Almost-kiss or not, it was no competition Hands down, I’d lose So, noto write another letter and poke that slowly-healing bruise
“Avery, we’re ready to start filuys called out
“Are we ready?” Avery leaned over the counter, givingsmile
“Screw you guys, I’m out of here” Max jumped up like someone had zapped her with a cattle prod, and rushed off to the sidelines
“One second Berk wanted to know if he could have some donuts I’ll pay for them”