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Gripping onto my ass, he carried me onto it, and within seconds he was down by s for me, baby”

I scoffed out a chuckle, knowing howthis Me at his mercy

“Let me take care of you,” he added

Even after all these years, those words still had an affect on me like they did the first time he’d said them on the Ferris wheel

“Now be irl and close your eyes”

I did My heart was beating a mile a minute

I heard hio into between

Seconds

Minutes

Hours could have gone by

Until a loud, fast heartbeat filled the silence of the roo into tears

Big

Fat

Ugly tears

Unable to keep it in, it flew out ofin its path

I bawled for all the tiative test

For every nant

For every period I got

For every dreaative test

For the names we’d picked out and could never use

For the nursery in our home that remained cold and empty

For all the love we had to give, with no children to share it with

For the hoht with no babies to raise behind those cream-colored walls

For all the guilt

The I’m sorrys

For the years that passed us by fighting

For the little girl as told she orthless

For the mother I didn’t have

For the husband I’d almost lost

Most of all, for the baby growing inside of me…

I cried for it all

I couldn’t stop sobbing

Shaking

Feeling like I was dead and now revived