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“It didn’t?”

“I don’t think I’ll ever have peace In reality, I know I’veofto understand why my parents didn’t want me”

I bowedabout Kinley

We didn’t talk about her er discussed, it was an unspoken agreement between us After I asked Kinley to ht that changed the course of our lives

“I thought it would eventually go away, but e found out ere having a boy, it resurfaced all this PTSD bullshit I didn’t know I still had”

“You’re an a to worry about”

“It doesn’t feel that way to me” He eyed me skeptically “What?”

“Nothing” I shook my head

“It’s not nothing What’s up?”

“I never told you this, but my initial pull toward Kinley was the fact that she re you say all this, I can’t help but wonder if that’s how she feels Like she’ll never be good enough for me”

“There’s a big difference between Kinley and ers tell me I orthless and that they didn’t want s”

His words weighed heavy on ned the divorce papers We were both avoiding each other There was nothing left to say, we’d said it all

“That shit stays with you, Christian For a long tie part of you was doing the same You had the beautiful wife, the perfect house, you’re a successful doctor, you have everything you ever wanted, yet it wasn’t enough I think you need to ask yourself why it wasn’t”

“I already know” I paused, needing a second to be honest with myself

Julian knew our issues of being unable to get pregnant and why I’d told hi at his ranch

“I blamed her Fuck” I shook my head “I still blame her”