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“She told us that a feeeks ago,” I state dryly “Dare I even ask how you know? When it comes to Granny, why am I not surprised? “Please tell me you can’t see it in my face or read it in my eyes That would be creepy”
“No Of course not Daniel’s grandood friends, she and I We weren’t even hoping you tould meet at the ball I ested it, because I know you’re cursed and the curse will be the one guiding you, not uess I’ your way”
“You kneas pregnant and you said nothing? Even though- even though that’s really fast? Even though it was a- a surprise?”
“I didn’t, because I wanted to give you time to tell me I’m sorry I had to blurt it out, but if you’re worried about Daniel doing what your dad did, I would say, don’t be If you think, in your heart of hearts- that squishy space deep down inside of you, and no, I’ your G-spot-”
“Christ, Granny, ould I think you were talking about that?”
She cackles and slaps at her thigh again and I can’t help but smile just a little “You see? A smile never killed anyone Now Your heart of hearts That squishy place that-”
“Not my G-spot, I know”
Granny snorts “I was going to say that squishy spot that is full of intuition, that place where you feel at peace, that place where you just know If that spot is telling you that you can’t trust Daniel, or that he’s not the one, then ht Maybe he’s not your soulmate As the father of your child, I know you’ll ure it out together You’re both ood people, at the very least, and you’ll both do the right thing But if that spot is telling you to let loose, trust, to fall, to open yourself up, to get invested, then I would do all of those things, even if you have a thousand doubts, because doubt is norical It’s how humans survive And above all, remember that Daniel isn’t your dad I don’t need a squishy spot to tell ood kid He was left behind just like you were, raised by his grandmother, just like you also kind of were I don’t know hirandh to know that she’s good shit and would have raised Daniel to be the same” One of Granny’s brows arches up “There Was that the talking down you needed?”
“I- I guess so Yes, yes it was Thank you, Granny”
Granny wraps her lovely, expensively perfuht ‘You’re a vibrant, s woman You don’t need me to tell you about how a life unlived isn’t a life at all That’s not Leandra My Leandra is tough My Leandra had to put up with four older oafs of brothers and cousins her whole life My Leandra took a risk and opened up her own boutique and becaoing to be a wonderful, wonderful irl”
That finally does it The orks start flowing Pretty soon I’ranny doesn’t irl If she’s sure, then the baby probably is Instead of thinking about having to raise her on , wonderful woman, all I can think about is how I’d like to do that with Daniel I know he’ll be a great dad I know he’s a good man I knoon’t twiddle off like my dad did, or like that asshole, Jackson did to Deb I know it all in my squishy place
What I don’t know is how I’ to undo that text I can’t unsend it I can’t take it back I can’t just say that I’ another major moment of doubt, but it’s over now What I should have done hat I knew I should have Talked it out, waited it out I shouldn’t have leapt into action
“I don’t kno to fix it,” I sob against Granny’s shoulder
I can hear the sht into a sea of pink and not at her face “The sa bouquet Speak without speaking Floriography”