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Wow
I take a deep breath “I just didn’t think it’s possible for three people to all be together in a serious relationship” And I know that was norance From what Beckett tells me, there are people in the world in happy polyamorous relationships
“I didn’t say it wouldn’t be hard There’s lack of tiamous ones, have complications In the end, it just takes effort and co for all people—commitment”
It’s an overwhelht to have this new possibility This new option I stare down at the M&M’s “But what if the green one had sex with the red one and the blue one?” I blush a little,Beckett’s eyes
His brows have risen “You lost your virginity?”
“Last night,” I say “It was fucking epic”
He laughs “I’lad They didn’t hurt you?”
I shake ether in the saether in ize Maybe because we haven’t been talking much lately, but sex isn’t an off-limits topic for us Even if he’s super private about his sex life with most people, he’s shared with me
“I asked,” he says into a shrug “I just want to make sure they’re not assholes to you”
“They’re not You know I’d dick-kick them if they fucked with me”
He pops an orange M&M in his mouth “Yeah, but I’d want to dick-kick them, too”
My ses through me “A triad?”
He takes a sip of his Fizz Life “It doesn’t h, does it?” he asks me “You said you already made a decision Who did you choose anyway?”
My stomach overturns “No one”
“What?” he frowns
“I was going to just choose their friendship for them and walk away”
He gives me an iconic what the fuck face “Now that is stupid”
“I didn’t knoe could all be together!” I collapse backward on the fuzzy rug “And what if they don’t want that option? A triad What if it sounds too complicated and too difficult and too different?” I’m an American princess If I profess to the world that I have two boyfriends, I’ to be fodder Maybe Akara and Banks won’t want to put h that—even if I’d want it
Fuck, I want it
I want them
Both of them
“They may not want to do it,” Beckett says, honestly “It’s not for everyone”
We talk more about the ins and outs of polyaives me a crash course—and I ask if he’s been in one No, only casually dating But he’s had threesomes, which weren’t relationships Just sex