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Because I was a stupid, selfish asshole I’d give anything to go back to our wedding day, explain s for Becca, and tell Evan that I’ aside in his quest to take over Reservoir Maybe I still would have lost Sloan in the end, but at least I would have had the co ret

With a heavy sigh, I ease out of the corner and slink out the door, reaching for my car keys with one hand and my phone with the other, then dial Evan It’s barely four am in Maui I’ll probably wake him up, but he deserves to know sooner rather than later that I utterly fucking failed

“Bas?” he sounds groggy “What’s up?”

“Hey, buddy I’ot bad news…”

April 30

After Sloan delivers her triuht back to Maui As soon as I walk through my front door, I drop my suitcase, turn off my phone, and open a bottle

The first of many

Evan co o somewhere with hiives up and parks hiame I don’t remember who played, much less the outcome

Saturday is another Cîroc-induced blur

Nia pops by Sundayto check on me But by the ti that vodka does, in fact, mix with diet cola to make the breakfast of losers Yeah, that visit is a hazy meizes for putting her foot in her mouth with Sloan At least I have the presence of mind to assure her it’s not her fault

Despite all the vodka, I’m aware that it’s totally mine

By Sunday evening, I stop drinking and sober up My head pounds and my sto to dull the pain of losing Sloan, I think about every dirty, underhanded thing I’ve done since pro Wynah Everything she said What’s important to me What I want out of life

I end up with a shit-pile of regret but no obvious answers about how toI realize I need to do? Be a better person

I can start by being a better son

After I grab a bottle of water and pop a couple of ibuprofen, I power es fro if I’m okay