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There was nothing false in Emily’s responses to him

She was lost in his caresses And he loved the way she gave herself over to him

Only one difficulty What she was doing right now, her cries, the shifting of her hips, the feel of her hands on him made him want to drive into her

He would wait

He wanted this to be all for her

The probleot that he was a man atched and waited and never quite lost himself to the woman in his arms A piece of him always stood outside, a cool observer of the action

He seemed to have lost that ability

The proof had come after they’d ht

After, he’d wrapped her in his arms They’d fallen asleep with him still inside her A minute, an hour, an eternity later, he’d jerked awake to a stunning reality

He hadn’t used a condoht of it

He’d stared up at the ceiling, E himself he hadn’t just lost control, he’d lost his sanity

She’d stirred against him

“What’s the matter?” she’d said sleepily

“I did not…” He’d cleared his throat “Emily I did not use a condom”

“It’s all right I should have told you I’m on the pill”