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Each laugh gusts froer hold in, and it’s as addictive to me as the taste of hisI need now

If I’d ever thought he was good-looking before, in passing or noticed in irritation, I never knew the full story When Josh s and I frantically catalog this et, while delirious with fever

If only I could hold on to this moment I already feel the sadness that will hollow me out when it ends I want to tell hi, because he laughs until the ht in the corner of his eye is a bullet to my heart I’ll be able to replay this beautiful, impossible moment in my memory when I’m a hundred years old

“Go ahead, killhis eye with his hand “You know you want to”

“So bad,” I tell hi in et the words out “So bad, you have no idea”

MY PAJAMAS ARE soaked with shen I jolt awake and there is a third person inlike an injured monkey

“Calm down,” Josh says into my ear I scramble into his lap and presshis cedar scent so hard I probably suck out his ghost I’m about to be taken to a scary medical facility, away from the safety of my bed and these arms

“Don’t let theet better!”

“I’ and what syloves

“She wa

sn’t one hundred percent this hout the day Visibly sweaty since lunchti at five PM”

“And then?” The doctor continues to select things fro them on the end of my bed I watch suspiciously

“Delirious by eight Trying to strangleup closer to one hundred four, and now she’s one hundred five point six”

I squeeze lands inbetween his thighs now, feeling his solid weight behind my shoulder blades My own huertips intosounds My top is peeled up a few inches

“What in the hell happened here?” They both simultaneously let out a sympathetic hiss of breath