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Most of all, I should have told her that Dan died because of me

I couldn’t No details of the reason I was there were supposed to be public nor the response tea Brandon and Graham know

Not being cohed heavily on , but I kept pushing it to the back ofI’d come clean later

In the end, I didn’t confess to her Now I could see no way out No matter what I did at that point, I’d hurt her If I left her without an explanation, just left the package of letters behind, she’d hate me and feel hurt for a while, but then she’d move on If I told her the truth, at least as much of the truth as I could, she’d hate me and feel betrayed

I had to stop what I was doing I had to stop the deception

I’d drop off the package of letters to Dan’s parent’s house I wouldn’t stop in to speak with thee in thefroe of letters in the brownstone

There was no right thing to do at that point I’d so thoroughly fucked everything up that there was no recovering from it

All I could do was try to block any ether I had a company in crisis and a family of criminals to watch over back in Hell’s Kitchen As et all that and immerse myself in Miranda, lovely Miranda, I knew she’d hate htfully so – when she found out the truth

On Saturday night, instead of going back to bed after Miranda took the limo service back home, I put on my sandals and walked down across the boardwalk to the beach Thethe frothy surf Above me were the stars, brilliant despite the moon

I wished… I wished I’d done things right at the start of all this

I should have found the address in Topsail Beach and just forwarded the package of letters to Dan’s parents, once I knew his identity

If I insisted on delivering them personally, I should have introduced myself and revealed that I receive the letters in error I should have given her the letters immediately when I walked into that bar to see if I could find Dan’s parent’s address I should never have even considered seducing Miranda unless she kneho I was

I stood watching the surf for a long while, knowing full well that sleep would be a long ti

I went for a long run the nextto work out some of my frustration Then, before I left the hotel, I connected to a webinar being held for one of Brimstone’s clients

It was an i but I barely heard a word All I could think of was how Miranda would feel when she received the letters I’d leave right after I dropped the letters off at Dan’s parent’s house I’d leave a note explaining that I received the letters by ize