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After they loaded the trunk, Luke and I got into the rear seats and buckled up When we drove off, I looked back at the beach house and the beach beyond, the waves crashing on the shore The h the clouds and it was really beautiful, if cold Our view in Bora Bora would be beach, but it would be sunshine most of the time, and clear blue calm waters

"Well, Milady, we're off," Luke said and took my hand as we drove off He kissed my knuckles and smiled

"We are," I said "I'm so excited"

"It's going to be a long haul to get there, but once we do, we can just laze around and do whatever ant -- or nothing at all"

"I want to scuba dive and sight see and swio out for dinner and shop," I said "I've spent the last four et in as much touristy stuff as possible"

"Whatever you wish," Luke said and kissed ain

We arrived at the airport and went right to security, then into the first-class waiting area where ould spend the next hour or so waiting for our flight to board We were able to have some nice decaf cappuccinos and lattes, which pleased nant We sat beside aand watched the airplanes board

Finally, the call caht and we made it onto our plane, then to our first-class seats for the first leg of our trip to San Francisco Take off was routine, and we settled in for the breakfast, which was delicious We had a two hour stop in San Francisco, and then a nine-hour flight to Papeete, Tahiti We'd arrive that night and stay in a hotel near the airport overnight and then take the final leg to Bora Bora the next

Our flight to Papeete was uneventful, and our hotel there was nice, but I was tired after a full day sitting on a plane and wanted nothing more than a walk on the beach and then bed Luckily, Luke was of the same mind and we left the hotel in Papeete and walked for about thirtya nice warether and then bed I kneas probably interested in sex, but I just wasn't ready yet and while I felt bad that he'd been so deprived for so long, I couldn't bring myself to initiate it I was thankful he was patient and wanted to wait for uilt on me

Part of ht that I could just lie there and let hiet off and sleep well, but when I'd offered him just that before, he'd turned me down

"I don't want to make love to you unless you're just as into it as I am I can wait There's more to our relationship than just sex When you feel like it, come to me I'll be ready"

Part of ain, and that maybe my hormones were all out of whack and would stay that way I et all affectionate with Luke if it meant he would be left with blue balls or he'd have to take matters into his own hands Most of all, I was afraid that if I didn't initiate sex with hi me Sex was to men what intimacy was to women -- or so my mother always told me If a anted their husband to be intihts, you had to have sex with them -- a lot of sex

So, as each day passed withlove, I felt more andme

"I'm sorry, I'm still not ready" I said to hiainst my back

"Shh," he said and squeezed er I can hold out I' haul"