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Before

I got with Monterius, I had a subtle little vibe about ot out of character, none of that I had a few hoirls that I kicked it with, I would probably entertain a few niggas, and that was it Yeah, I had little boyfriends in the past, but it was nothing serious I was only twenty-four years old, so

I didn’t get my first real boyfriend until I was sixteen Truth was his naa to break h At the tih school, and Truth was a senior Fine ass nigga too All the girls wanted him He was on the basketball team, the best player in the county, and he knew that

When I was in high school, I used to be on the dance team, and he approachedshit; he really just wanted to know about tryouts for the next season His feh school the next year, and she wanted to try out for the team From then, he would always find a way to have a conversation with et the answer to froh, because I could tell that this was actually new to hi to him, so he really didn’t kno to approach someone he really wanted

Eventually, phone nued, and he becas before school, and at night before I went to sleep I was sixteen, and a bitch was in love, okay! He had a car, so he would pick o on dates and stuff Because he was a senior, when prom came around, he asked me to be his date, and of course, I went

My mama and I were cool At times, she was dain at the ti to breakass heart, but I didn’t listen Hht I re so uncomfortable and the unbearable pain because of his size But once I relaxed and was able to take the dick, it was the best feeling in the whole world For hours and hours, he fucked me silly in that room Every day after that, he would pick me up to take me to his house, so we could have sex

The heartbreak didn’t coa popped up on me literally out of the blue to let e and play ball He had a full ride to Duke University Not only did he leave, but he broke up with me too I swear, I cried about the shit for months He broke my heart, just likeprofessional basketball for the Lakers He’s just as handsome as he used to be, if not more handsome, but that’s the past

After him, I entertained other people, but when Monterius and I finally started kicking it, I was sood dick ass! I’ve known Monterius for years That was Billion’s best friend, so he’d always been right there We never crossed that line because, for the longest, I just never viewed hi that I had the body of a little boy, so I knew he didn’t view me in a sexual way either

After high school, a bitch’s hips started spreading, and a couldn’t help hiest mistake I ever made in life is when I sat on his dick for the first ti his ass You kno a or howto cut his ass to death The nigga was going to make me lose the last bit of self-control that I barely had left

The thing with Monterius is that he was such a bad ass liar, and he was a sloppy ass cheater at that It could be that or the fact that I wasn’t some dumb ass bitch My mama raised me, one of the hoodest bitches in the world, so I elve when she schooled ame on er seat was adjusted if he had a bitch in the car The thing is, I get it, he was only twenty-seven, and at that age, a lot of niggas weren’t ready for commitment, so that part was understandable What I didn’t understand was the fact that I be telling this nigga to go, leave me the fuck alone, and entertain them bitches, but he claimed that it wasn’t them that he wanted Instead, it was me

Normani always told me that love wasn’t supposed to hurt, and I deserved better than Monterius The thing is, I really loved this man, but as much as I loved him, I couldn’t let hi about cheating Every tia less and less Plus, I had Drea her to my toxic ass relationship

There had been ti in the wee hours of thefor us to stop She had walked in too many ti or in e that men weren’t shit and that all a man would do was break your heart, and at five years old, I didn’t need her to witness this The little girl had already seen too much shit in the first place

“There she goes right there” I pointed in the direction ofwith the other wo from the back

A big set up from her seat and ran over to her mother I always told Dream to wait at the table until Loyal comes, but like always, the shit went in one ear and out the other Drea just like Loyal looked when she was her age My sister and I had the same mama and same daddy, so ultiht brown eyes, and really long, thick hair I liked to keep different wigs, never really wearing my natural hair because it was just too much to keep up

Loyal often told ing by how long, thick, and healthy her hair was, you would think she just left the salon She was dressed in gray joggers, with a gray shirt, sneakers on her feet, and her hair was parted down theteary-eyed as I watched Loyal bend down to hug Dream A tear did fall, but I quickly wiped it aith the back of my hand This was so sad for me because I knew Loyal’s heart, and I knew that she was a daood mother She didn’t deserve this shit, but this was life When you do the crime, you have to do the time