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The Truth

Sara was not sure oke her Her sleep was dreamless, the room quiet But she woke nonetheless, and when she did, the first thing she saas the other half of the bed

It was painfully empty, just like how it had been the other times, when she would fall asleep in Raaf's aro the previous tiure it out on her own

But tonight was different

Tonight, the sight of all that e her body into a ball

If her Raaf had still been beside her in bed, it was possible that all the evil doubts and insecurities lurking stealthily in the back of her mind would never have made their way to the surface If he had still been there, he wouldn't even have to say a word She would only need a second to lose herself in his Paul-Newer troubled

If only he was there

But because he was not, there was now this terrible feeling in the pit of her sto up, up and away

Until it punctured her lungs and every breath she drew becale

Stop Stop Stop

She wanted the awful feeling to just stop crawling, but still it went up until it filled heras it was familiar

Oh, how she knew this taste

She had felt this the first time she touched herself, and noith her es of what she had allowed to happen between her and another boy - she felt it again, and of course it was nothing else but guilt and shame

Raaf will ht, Sara told herself

She only felt guilty and asha was still new, and it was all too easy to beat herself up for wanting and enjoying so that the rest of the world would find sordid

She just had to find Raaf, and he would tell her again she had been nificent - that was his word, wasn't it?

Magnificent

The sooner she could hear that one word froet up and started one to

Lounge? Fly deck? His office?

But her worries proved unnecessary the moment she stepped out of her room