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That’s soth

Could I have done it if given the chance?

I’ll never know

All I know is I owe Zee and Reid and the others my life

“I’ain”

“You can’t make that proht for you”

“He can couess he can’t”

“No, he can’t There’s a reason e don’t allowother than security, who are carefully vetted”

“I know I understand I’ll let you know, then, if I’ht”

She sighs into my ear “That’s not ant either, Katelyn We don’t want to control you You’re free now You have the right to live your life as you see fit”

“Then what’s the answer?”

Another sigh “The answer, I guess, is that I need to let you go”

“Maybe I don’t want you to let o”

“We’ll still be friends, of course Maybe I need to tell security not to let me knohen someone doesn’t come home”

“That’s not good What if there’s a problem?”

“I don’t have the answer,” she says “Reid and I will talk about it We’ll talk to Macy Talk to security We’ll figure out a system that works for everyone Okay?”

The right words don’t co soives ht I ao as I please I can be hom I please I can… I can have sex with a man if I want to, whether I’m emotionally ready for it or not

“I’ll be home soon,” I tell her “I didn’t plan this Otherwise I would have let security knohen I left”

“You shouldn’t have to do that This isn’t the 1950s, where woe dorms We’re just all very concerned about you and the others”

“I know that, Zee And I thank you for it”

She inhales “No need to thank any of us We’re here to help We want to help I just…”

“What?”

“I feel a responsibility to all of you I feel…kind of…”

I wait She’s having a hard ti whatever this is

“Guilty,” she finally says “I feel guilty I’ot away The rest of you didn’t And I feel especially responsible for you, Katelyn I should have taken you with otten out”

“We’ve been through that There’s no way you could have”

Silence again She knohat I say is true, but she still feels the guilt I understand I’d most likely feel the same way

“You’re very special to me,” she says