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“I’ve been going to see a therapist once a week I’ve been doing group therapy too I was depressed…struggling for a long time but I never let myself see it I tried to pretend it wasn’t there Maybe I’ve been pretending most of my life”

Oliver sed He sure as shit hadn’t expected to hear that There was truth to his words, though and as he looked at Matt, he noticed sht in his eyes “Is it helping?” he asked, even though he was sure it was

“Yeah, Ollie It’s helping” He took another drink of his coffee, Oliver had a feeling, as a way to give hi you and ad shit I tried to keep buried”

“You didn’t lose me I’ll always be your friend”

“I did lose you, though, and that’s okay It needed to happen Fuck, I have alanted you Always Even before we became friends when I used to see you with Chance and Miles I wanted nothing more than to be a part of what they had with you Wanted it so fucking ainst every action you made to try and be my friend, up until that day with the piano”

The muscles in Oliver’s stomach spasmed, and his pulse kicked up even more as he listened to Matt

“Then we became friends, and I wouldn’t let h for you Jesus, you’re the best person I know You’re ht here inh but he needed to let Matt do this for both of them

“I think a part of me resented you because I knew you loved me I’ve always known, but I didn’t understand why I didn’t see how you could love ainst it I’d falter and pull you close then distance ain”

Oliver cleared his throat “And now?”

“Now I’ to love myself I realize that I’ for I stoppedon ht for everything else, but none of it will ever feel like enough if I don’t at least try to fight for you too Maybe that’s selfish of ave up on me, Ollie For years you’ve held on, and I’ll be daive up on you this easily I—”

“Shut up,” Oliver interrupted him “Just shut up” This was the Matt he knew This was the Matt he’d always believed in This was the Matt he’d always loved The one he was damned proud of “It’s always been you for me”