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“It’s beautiful out here, Ollie,” Matt said from beside him

“Are you doing okay? I know you’re nervous about tomorrow” What Oliver didn’t understand exactly, hy

“I will be I’m always okay I just…I know it sounds crazy but I don’t like all those eyes on me It makes me feel like I’m naked” Oliver looked over at Matt just as Matt shook his head “It makes me feel more than naked—naked I could deal with It makes…it makes me feel like a fraud”

Oliver’s pulse jackhammered He opened hisagain before he could “I get sick soo to the bathroo is okay”

“Jesus, Matty And Parker never stopped you?”

He rolled his head until he was looking at Oliver “Parker never knew”

The ent How could he not see that Matt had been hurting? They’d lived together for years, worked together for even longer How could he not have known?

“Why do you do it? Christ, Matt Why do you do that to yourself?” Oliver rolled to his side He couldn’t stop hi Matt’s brown hair off his forehead, froer

“It’s all I can do—”

“Fuck that”

“I didn’t tell you that to argue with you I told you because I needed to get it out Because you’re the only person in the fucking world I can tell sos to I just needed you to hear it, not try and fix it for me or not try to tell me what I can or can’t do What I should or shouldn’t do I just needed you to hear it”