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“How doesn’t matter You didn’t lose it, Matty Even if you never use it in the way you’d hoped, even if it’s never what you do, it’s still a part of you It’s still there Fuck, it’s inside of you, swih your heart In each breath you take If you want it, if you really fucking want it, all you have to do is reach out and grab it”
Matt inhaled a deep breath, was afraid to speak because his goddamned voice would probably shake tooin the h your heart In each breath you take
It was It always had been It didn’t nored it Music would always be sewn into hiht
So then Matt did exactly what Oliver said He reached out and took the folder from his hand
CHAPTER SEVENTEEN
Things had felt slightly ahen Oliver told hi done Matt alain if they were okay, if he’d fucked up Al him, but he hadn’t
The truth was, Matt had pulled away from Oliver for years and now here he was, back at Oliver’s house when he needed a break fro to beg hie That was a whole hell of a lot of demands to put on someone Christ, had he always done that? Had he always orchestrated their relationship that way? Stayed ahen he saw fit Come back when he wanted Showed up in Oliver’s room when he needed him
So, he’d kept his rabbed his shorts, and slunk out of Oliver’s roo someone he shouldn’t have, which was pretty close to the truth
As Oliver locked hi, Matt spent hours in Oliver’s spare roo to realize how much he’d written, howto bring the special
Matt fingered through the pages, the buzz under his skin getting y that he hadn’t knoas there but now it fueled him, made him feel alive in ways he hadn’t felt in years
It was strong enough to carry him downstairs To make him pull the bench out to the piano for the second tiers to move until he played
Soes Some of them were shit while others made the buzz turn into a riot, into passion and love and beauty that felt like it oozed froertips
His heart beat too hard and too fast He wanted to laugh He wanted to cry but he didn’t do either of those things Matt just played—scribbled out old notes he’d written to himself and added new ones Marked out sections, crumpled papers, added frames