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Maybe Maybe not That’s the problem I don’t knohere his head is at

I wish I could explain everything to my mother, but she’d never understand the situation I’h to set off fireworks But love…love shouldn’t be so complicated That’s not the kind of love I want

I guess so for his love But I’m not those woirl who falls apart when life gets rocky

Even if his absence and the unknown surrounding us tug at my heart, I have to keep the barrier that keeps me safe Because we did have complications, and in the past, Ryder could and sometimes did hurt me deeply with his rejection We did have obstacles in our way I’d offered iven him my heart, and until I kneouldn’t crush it, I never would

“We’ll see what happens” is the only reply I’ive her

I tug her forward, not wanting to think about how much I want Ryder and how unavailable he is, and lead Mom into Dad’s hospital room I find him in bed with his eyes shut, but when I accidently kick the door, he snaps them open

“Sorry” I cringe

“Don’t be,” he says, waving lad you came to see me They wouldn’t let me come down to visit you” He holds out his arms and I drop Mo him “Are you okay?” he asks

“I a that’s not where he was shot “Just a few stitches, nothing more And you?”

I lean away as he says with a grin, “Nothing can take down this beast”

I laugh, too, maybe because that’s all you can do in the insanity of this situation Both of us nearly died at the hands of ato be celebrated “I was so, so scared for you,” I tell him softly

Dad’s eyes darken “I’m sorry you had to find me like that”

“If I hadn’t—” I force a s to go there

He sently in return, tears in his eyes “I was so, so scared for you”

“I’ he needs to hear that fro to behold, and I don’t want ton did this, and truly, I am fine