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Then he leapt up suddenly:
“Coic, ill fight this evil and not lose hope”
He took his bag; ent into Sadan’s rooht… she is unconscious again!” He locked the door fro There would be a third blood transfusion
This tienerous and brave tutor’s blood into Sadan’s veins The poor girl began to breathe norrew redder and she fell into a healthy sleep Before leaving her to rest, Resuhî Bey saw Sadan’sin the patient’s room
I consider ood doctor, but I do not understand any of this Is it because all the worry, fear, and distress isme dimwitted?
From Sadan’s Diary
17 Septehts I ah I have been spared froht My God, as it? I was falling into an oblivion of darkness and a my eyes tired and nearly dead in my bed After the dear Doctor Resuhî Bey’s er hear the flapping wings of a big, dark bird at night I no longer hear distant, strange, and harsh orders telling ainst rown accustos baskets of them every day I decorateI awoke twice last night Resuhî Bey was asleep on the sofa; and even though I heard the angry sound of wings flapping, I easily fell asleep
again
17 Septeht—I write these lines to leave an exact record of what has happened Let it be clear that if I die, no one is responsible Yes… I feel that I am about to die soon of exhaustion However, I will keep writing with all of th I will even die with the pen in my hand
After seeing that the flowers had been placed as Doctor Resuhî Bey directed, I went to sleep in peace I awoke suddenly in the ht Outside theI heard the sound of flapping wings that had begun the night my dear friend Güzin found me by the seaside in Bakirköy I did not have the sa of helplessness, but I would have liked Resuhî Bey to be here in the next room I tried to sleep, but it was impossible Presently the old fear of sleep returned, and I deteran to coainst e bat was visible in the darkness, buffeting its wings against the glass froh not to sleep, but just at that moment my mother came into the room and sat on the bed beside me She kissed irl!” I was afraid that she htdress So I convinced her to sleep next to s caain My mother was startled a little and asked, “What is that?” I tried to pacify her but I could al of her heart
A rew louder With one last blow, theshattered into the roo wind blew the curtains toward us My mother pointed at theand screaaunt old wolf—yes, a real as staring at us with bared teeth Myher scream and afterward fell still; but at that moment she clutched the wreath of flowers around my neck and broke it apart I could not think clearly about anything; my eyes were fixed on the brokenThe wolf drew his head back, and the wind filled the roo specks and spots of dust These shiny things scattered, swirled, and fore shapes I wanted to move but I was anchored in place as if by some invisible force The cold body of my mother, who had died because her heart could not withstand the terror, lay on my chest After this I blacked out completely for some time
When I openedand I lay with my mother’s dead body I was barely able to write these lines in the diary beneath inning to float again… My God, my God, protect me My brave lover Turan, where are you? Farewell Turan,worse I do not think I can write any more… my God…
From Doctor Afif’s Diary
18 Septe, I saw Resuhî Bey stepping out of an autoreat co My old tutor’s face was completely white
We went straight to Sadan’s door without a word to anyone Oh God, how can I describe the scenethere!