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Five of theuilty — one of them a meained for the charge to be downgraded to affray One look at the CCTV footage and they quickly changed their plea to guilty They were each given ten , will be released after only twelve weeks (fivemember who enlisted their help was the first to hear the sirens, and escaped moments before the police arrived

DAY 115

SATURDAY 10 NOVEMBER 2001

638 am

There isn’t a day that goes by when I don’t wish I wasn’t here I miss my freedom, I miss my friends and above all I miss Mary and the boys

There isn’t a day that goes by when I don’t curse Mr Justice Potts for what everyone saw as his prejudicial su out such a draconian sentence

There isn’t a day that goes by when I don’t wonder why the police haven’t arrested Angie Peppiatt for embezzlement

There isn’t a day that goes by when I don’t question how I can be guilty of perverting the course of justice while Ted Francis is not; either we are both guilty or both innocent

I have been in jail for 115 days, andman called Derek

Derek knocks quietly onto deal with his siraph on the back of a picture of the girlfriend who has stood by hireat detail, even though they know I’ threea personal cheque he knew he hadn’t the funds to cover He spent a s tell istrate’s ‘short, sharp shock’ has enabled hi of heroin and language that he had no idea any hu resorted to

‘But,’ he adds before leaving, ‘you’ve been an exaness to listen to anyone else’s problems, have surprised everyone here’

I can’t tell him that I have no choice It’s all an act I am hopelessly unhappy, dejected and broken I sh when I see no humour, I help others when I need help n, even for a h, I would have to read the details in so I do is only a phone call away from a friendly journalist with an open cheque book I don’t knohere I have found the strength to maintain this facade and never break down in anyone’s presence

I will e it, even if it’s only to defeat my enemies ould love to see me crumble I am helped by the hundreds of letters that pour in every week from ordinary, decent members of the public; I am helped by my friends who remain loyal; I am helped by the love and support of Mary, Will and James

I have no thoughts of revenge, or even any hope of justice, but God knoill not give in

DAY 116