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I exhale, feelingto spread like wildfire I’otten out yet If there's any chance for Layla andon froet her to answer the phone I lean the seat of o into the house Today’s been a nightet worse
“I don’t know”
The paternity test came back Bryson is my kid
Bryson is still in the hospital
The nurses say he’s going to be here for a while, but I had hoped to have hirow I don’t have insurance Amanda had Medicaid, but I’m not sure how it all works since she passed The woman fro ork out, but I know better
Doctors have co-pays
Hospitals have stupid expensive co-pays
I’ at thousands of dollars I don’t have, all to support a baby I wasn’t prepared for I can’t even work over ti cows and I only had one calf born this year
On top of it all, Layla is still ignoring me Her apartment has been cleaned out and rented to so address Not even her aunt, whoup at the office unannounced
I sag ontoon TV, but nothing holds oing to check on Bryson, but ive me a minute’s peace
Every ti over and over again I don’t know if oes on or ifin the blanks with new micro-details about how that day went down, but it sucks My nightmares, those are so intense I can’t sleep unless I black out
Every breath hurts, everyout of bed in the uilt of how I treated A about Bryson chips away atdroondering about Layla and what could have been had I not been such a jerk The only thing that helps numb the suckiness that has become my life is whiskey
I grab the bottle of Jack on the end table I have them everywhere Not on purpose, they just seem to show up Beside the toilet In my bed Under the table It’s like I have a whiskey fairy, leaving ive into teht
I take a s of the amber liquid, then chase it doith another and another until the pain in my chest doesn’t hurt quite asI drift off into a dark hole of nothingness and not another night on, but
I groan and open my eyes There’s only one person I want to see and she doesn’t knock, let alone bang No She’d waltz in and make herself at home because that’s what this place was supposed to be Her home