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I knew my behavior worried Jonathon, but I couldn’t help it It was one thing to lose a friend It was another to lose a child Especially when you can hold and see the potential that was in that child Every day I wondered to myself what Matteo may have become Would he have chosen to turn into a vampire or live out life like a human? Jonathon had explained todirectly off of a hue But he told e like normal humans They usually live to be two-hundred years old but that they do eventually age and die

I wondered to myself what kind of person Matteo would have become, would he have been ? Maybe music?

So, s I wanted to know about my son that I never would I wanted to believe what Jonathon had toldhappens for a reason But it was hard I didn’t understand why I had not one, but three, children taken from me Was I not meant to be a mother?

After we lost Matteo, Jonathon becaht him, more than once, with his nose buried in the book of prophecies I also found hi My curiosity was beginning to peak and I kneouldn’t be long before I pulled out the copy of prophecies that Gabriel had made forabout it frightened

And there was another probleain If I was I would be about six weeks along But I hadn’t taken a test, or gone to the doctor I knehy I was scared that I was pregnant and I couldn’t go through losing another baby And I didn’t want to tell Jonathon It was a while after we lost Matteo before he would touch o through the pain of losing another baby I didn’t want that either but I still wanted to be a mom

My doctor, a vaes He said that nancies but not vampire-huuess I just had to be different

But if I was pregnant again I had to find out I had to do things differently this time I would not lose another baby I would do whatever it took to keep this baby

The boys were gone on a hunt and so it was just me, Diana, and Amelia in the house I crept down the attic steps, I hardly left the bedroom anymore, and went in search of Diana I checked her room first but she wasn’t there

In the fa so

“Amelia?” I asked

“H her eyes from her task

“Do you knohere Diana is?”

She looked up at ,” she turned back to her work

“Thanks,” I lass doors I had avoided going into the backyard after the battle with Selena that ended in my best friend’s death I took a deep breath and push

ed them open It was time to face my fears