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"Just listening," I say It sounds slightly curt, so add a strike to the "fucked it up" column

"Mkay," he says softly Soft and easy Asking for nothing That's Josh Miller He's a good guy Too good for e All myissues?

I saw Greeley again two days ago, and we did our first session of EDMR—trauo backbut I will For Miller Because if I' to stay with him—and I aether right The arht sides I have to beco person Not just for hiuess

Do I deserve to be a whole person?

I do

I know I do

Do I feel like I do? Not every day But I knoith my brain

We pass under a bridge A walking bridge?

"What is that?" I ask

"I think it's just soe Part of the state park that's here"

I didn't know there was a state park I don't say it "That's cool," I say instead

Then, with no warning, all the pine trees disappear, and there's justwater On both sides of the road Water lapping between tall grass Marshy water There's a long-legged bird of so in it It's a white bird

The road tilts up We're driving onto a bridge I can see the glass sheet of the lake on both sides I look outat the shoreline Trees and cliffs It's pretty Picturesque If I tried hard enough, I could re? Hardly anybody after they do ECT loses their memories forever It's supposed to be more temporary

I s Can't s Andthroat aches, too

I look out at the bridge Slats in it When our tires pass over them, they make a sound

Thunk thunk thunk