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'I' you the best- as ever'

I set the phone down, realizing a few seconds later that I' for air

"Fuck FUCK!"

I get out of my car Sood idea I stuffthat I didn’t hurt it too bad A groan comes from deep in my chest, so I cover my mouth with my free hand

“God”

I pat arettes I haven't had inwhimper

"God Oh God" I lean over, hands on et sick—but I haven't eaten since the gaainst the car's cool side

Breathe, I tell myself Just breathe

I want to screaet back in the Jeep and hold the wheel with sweating, tre co

He was mine

He loved me!

MILLER!

I didn't goddamn dream it I really wasn’t crazy

I fu the Ziplock I keep there I put it over my mouth and breathe until I'm not as dizzy

Fuck, fuck, fuck I was right! GODDAMMNIT!

I check his Snapchat Nothing He stopped snapping I check the gay snap for the university and—nothing I check his friend Daniel

There's so house I screenshot the thing, zoom in on the house It'slit up It's lit up like a frat house With fuers, I search Auburn's frat houses on my phone

That's when I feel the clawing feeling Iet to hi him I needed Miller, and I tried to leave myself a note It just didn't work

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