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I think that I’ for YOU

I know It can’t be real, at least I don’t think so We’re stepbrothers But you’re gay so…I dunno

Of course, I’m in the closet But- you seem like someone anyone could like Maybe I came out to you?

Did I?

Did you let me in your bed- and if you did- did you hold me the way I dream about?

It’s e to even write this shit down

I feel like…a girl And- that’s sexist So yep, I’m a sexist asshole, too

What I’ you to hold me Miller with the freckles and the tired, blue eyes Miller with those lips Goddamn You’re so beautiful I could look at you all day, and I do (Thank you Snapchat and Instagram)

That’s why I’m worried, too You see the ca hot (both over-heated hot and actually hot) and dog tired Soue or tip your head back like you’re trying to look cool, but you look tired I wish I knew you outside my weird, twisted fantasies so I would know if you are tired

I wish I could hold you when you sleep

I’irl- but I am kind of in love with you

If it’s not real, I hope it fades Because I don’t think about anything but football and you

It feels right, though You s, Miller Even if you are only my stepbrother Sleep for me

Ezra

August 19, 2019

Dear Miller,

I did so crazy today I know- you’re so surprised Not Ezra Masters, the guy who had his brain fried, spent a nosed by real professionals with all different types of mental illness

But yeah, man

This guy…went down to Auburn

I sort of know your schedule because you snap so much Since you snap a lot in er, I knew the ti based on Auburn’s campus map I waited outside, and dude- you came out