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Since the people here at Sheppard Pratt didn’t knohat I had co that they did would help uess I had ptsd, not depression- so I ended up with electroshock therapy I was still a fucked up wreck after I got out of here last time

ModernBut you can, Miller When I ith you, I barely even feel bad, except nightmares

I feel shitty that I didn’t tell you everything about lad you don’t know I don’t want you to kno messed up I am I don’t want to hurt you with it

It would hurt you We both kno fucking nice you are You’re the best thing I hate to think about you, because it makes me miss you so much, but I can’t help it

They say ECT can make your memories blurry sometimes, but it didn’t happen to me last time I was in here Also, this shit with us is fire-proof Seizure-proof

Seizures… I hope you’re okay

I love you I don’t even like being in love It scares me But I love you So much I could never say no to it

Myin a better head space” here at Sheppard Pratt Using their psych ay anymore- or whatever crazy bullshit she thinks

In case you’re wondering- Moht away that I was fucked, as soon as she told ay and happy in a relationship She said I had to co proble

You knohat I did, Miller?

I told her- on the phone, on the roof outside your roo with Carl I told her everything about us (except who you are) That I found soayer than the fucking world and she can suck it Okay- I didn’t say that exactly

I didn’t think my mom could surprise me Not at this point But she did She said if I didn’t coo back to Sheppard Pratt, she would tell the police that I’m unstable And she’d tell them what happened with Paul

I did so terrible one tiuess you could call it self-defense It’s so that, if people found out, it would ruin my life Like, really ruin it And my mom knows that That’s why she used it as a threat That’s why it worked

One day I’ll tell you about all that shit One day in the future- et you drunk, or feed you Xanax So it won’t upset you

I think it would really hurt to hear it If you still love me