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I lie onfull andof his hand aroundWhen I open my eyes, I find I’m up before my alarm
Morning wood’s got me too hard to ithout that just-kicked-in-the-nuts feeling, so I jerk it again, still hearing his raspy whispers in my head
Shit—I should have reached around to see if he was hard, too That would answer lots of questions
I step slowly into the bathroo for me But the room is empty The shower is dry Dickface must not be awake yet
In the bathroom mirror, I find a bite mark ona leak and take a lower-body shower since there’s jizz on everything I throw on some basketball shorts and an old T-shirt that makes me look more cut than I am, plus Adidas slides Then I’et the upper hand
But Ezra never co from the island, and when Mom comes in to set her empty coffee cup in the sink, she tells me he left early
“Maybe so with football,” she says
Maybe so with my dick
Ezra’s late to honets I tear them away, but not before I note he’s in a navy hoodie, battered khaki shorts, and shoes I can’t see since he’s sliding into his desk, stretching his legs out in front of him
Today we have to watch a video on eo out, and then again as the projector starts I keep hearing his voice right there bywith me?
He rolls one of his shoulders, andback in iven that he’s right in front of h his hair
The video is boring, so ht He woke up and just…went atout because I saw hi as ere on the roof: he wrestled me down onto my back— bit me When I left, he said, “You’re welcome” Like he’d done me a favor
The more I think about that, the more it pisses me off My dick is not a toy for hi withviolated Okay, not really But I’m mad at rab my dick? Even a stepbrother hand?
I’ into his roohtht on Turn so down by hi Even if I want to know if he’d get hard, too
In second period, I have a new thought: What if he tells soay? What if Ezra tells Brennan? Fuck, he’d be offended as hell to find out second-hand I’ve told Bren before that I could see why souy in prison or on a desert island, but that’s not co shot
I’ve told Jenna, this girl named Emily that I sat by on the bus for a few years in uess he sensed it I’m about ninety percent sure he told his hipster friend Cierra—she’s in rade, so still here at FHS—because she smiles at me sometimes as if she knows a secret But that’s all At least that I know of
If Ezra isn’t gay, or wants to tell hi attracted to ay I ae soccer, but Coach McGee goes to Truthsong Church, and they’re the really evangelical ones If he finds out about et those coaches he knows from University of Montevallo to come check me out
I’rab a slice of pizza, put it away in three bites behind a colun e We seniors are allowed to walk down to the gas station, which normally has a Fairplay BBQ truck parked out front And even though it’s technically against the rules, soh the woods behind the school down to the beach Mostly smokers and stoners