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tonight I’rateful for church, just this once I’…dark Then at baseball, soht near rab his collar, but I stopped h

Afterward, Freddy invitedthem away

I said sorry to back-slap guy as I took off, and we shook hands, so I think it’s all good now

I can feel how drinking the beer wasn’t good, though Since I’ve sobered up, I feel like I’ve sunk a little lower than before the bar It’s that real bad, heavy, anxious, apathetic feeling Fucking mess

I stop at the back edge of the plateau Hold ht Darker than the last tis up to ht besideher, but I’m sort of scared I’ll hurt her I wrap an ar out

“I’m the princess, you’re the prince”

I’ent earlier…before I got in bed Told hiet me out of here early

There’s a ship coht now The Celia Left froht of the twentieth She’s a research vessel Not toothe twenty-first

“It’s too , see? And I’ll be here without you And I kno that works out, you see It doesn’t work out pretty”

With steady hands, I untie Baby’s leash and stand up Walk slowly across the plateau I hear ht, and quiet No sunlight to turn the squiggle of the waves above olden But it’s nice and dark And peaceful

She would never get over it

You’d drown, like her parents

Those thoughts make me feel like I should really do it

Take yourself out Piece of shit If you can’t do this right, you can’t do anything You already failed at living real life every time you tried

I crouch down by the ledge, squeezingso daht pass out Fall before I’m ready