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I pick it up and put down the lockbox, staring at the photograph This girl used to bring me so much pain that I wanted to conceal her very existence and pretend she never existed This photo is proof of that … it’s the only ie I kept of her

I cannot change the past, and I cannot bring her back from the dead

She is gone, along with the love I once felt, because when I stare at this picture, I feel nothing

Absolutely nothing

I sigh

Maybe it’s for the best

I bring the picture with arden where I haven’t sat in ages, and I light a fire with ait a second thought

If Harper is truly pregnant with my child, then it’s time to move on

The past is over I have a new future now

And a new fa for me inside that house

Harper

I only rest for a couple of hts after that doctor discovered I was pregnant It was impossible to hide it after he listened to ave ht I’d hear the sounds of life co from my own body

But it’s real I a to avoid reality, I cannot stop thinking about it now that it’s out there in the open Now that Marcello must surely knoell

I bury roan to myself How a around like a fire-spitting dragon?

At least, that’s how I picture hi, and the fact is that I really want to know Because I care what he thinks How he feels

About us

About this baby of ours

And the only way to find out is by asking him myself

I throw the blanket off et up

Fuck rest, fuck sleeping I can’t close my eyes like this

I get up and put uards eye me up and down, and I ask one of thearden, so I hop outside to take in some much-needed fresh air The doctor toldas I didn’t overdo it My body needs to be relaxed and have some time away from stress so it can heal itself and the baby remains safe

Because the thought of losing this little one is already unbearable