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How does Moot home froged me I tried to push her away, but she held on, and I burst into tears Yes, Diary, that’s how cool I a her the story, she said I needed to reood friends wanted the best for each other, and I should remember that

I do, Diary I do want Lexi to be happy Totally I don’t care at all if she goes to the stupid dance

Lexi didn’t go to the dance She said she’d WAY rather stay home with her best friend and watch movies, so that’s e did We made popcorn and watched movies Zach even stayed home with us He said any dance without us was a total waste of

“Nana?”

Jude looked up and saw her granddaughter standing by the bed In her pink terrycloth sweats, with her curly blond hair a e, and it disoriented Jude just a little For the first tih to touch The diary had brought her back to Jude

Grace burst into tears “M-my m-mommy left ”

Love Grace better She needs you

Jude got out of bed and scooped Grace into her arms “It’s okay, baby,” she whispered, and then suddenly Jude was crying, too She clung to Grace, crying against the child’s soft, plu the sweet baby sha …

“I tole her I wanted to st-stay with Daddy,” Grace said sobbing “An I do wanna be with Daddy, but … but I want my mommy, too I shoulda told her that ”

“Oh, Grace ” Jude looked at her granddaughter through a blur of tears In the soft focus, she saw not only Grace, but Zach and Mia, too And the Lexi who had been a part of them They were all in Grace’s face, in her eyes, in the pink bow of her otten that?

No, she hadn’t forgotten it She’d known it all along; she’d looked away from it purposely, afraid that the pain would kill her But not feeling had taken away her joy, too, left her in that gray haze of numbness

In a way, they were all together again in this moment, embraced in one another’s arms just as they would have been if Mia were alive

She carried Grace up onto Mia’s big bed and snuggled with her there

Grace slowly opened her siven Lexi “Look what Moave me ”

Jude picked up the fragile ring This hat she’d been so upset by all those years ago, a little circle of white gold with a sapphire chip; she’d thought a ring like this could derail a young hed