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What have I done?

I looked in the mirror and shook my head at my reflection

“I don’t know,” I whispered “I don’t knohat I’”

Part of ive me his phone back so I could call , to make all the hard decisions about ould happen next

To make all the decisions always…

I wanted to cry all over as I considered how badly I wanted that – for Dante or Magnus to tell me when to eat and sleep, what clothes to wear, when to speak and when to reo…

Two years of being allowed to ht to keep It was a right I should have been willing to die for But being free to choose also ret

And I’d had enough of those particular emotions to last me a lifetime, thank you very much

One choice had ruined my entire life and had torn my entire family apart

But when I’d finally accepted that I had no choices anymore, I’d finally been safe Yes, there’d been pain and fear, but there’d been relief too Giving in hadallowed to take my next breath Survival was the one choice I’d made for myself froo under the guise of being reunited with my injured parents, and that was the only reason I was even here today I knew that, but it didn’t iven up what should have been ht to keep as mine forever

Dante had been so proud of me for the choices I’d made for myself these past couple of years, but I doubted he realized how often I’d just wanted to beg him to make them for me Just like I wanted hihn or not

But it’d been like I’d told Magnus… I believed Vaughn and his reason for taking h as a kid to know that the men who’d takento keep their world a secret It wasn’t just er They’d kill anyone who stood in their way or who they thought they could use to get to me