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I picked up a book next to the bed and threw it at the door

“Ok I guess that means you’re in there I have to leave for a few hours”

I didn’t knohat thatto work I looked at the clock She should have been gone by now

I didn’t respond I pulled the quilt to my head and let the tears fall on rief I didn’t knohen I’d co was gray and shaded Doused with pain and sadness Betrayal had sunk its claws intoand stretching gaping holes in as left of me The murkiness was cold I shivered uncontrollably, no htly I pulled the blanket to my body

My eyes drifted open and I spotted the crossword lying on the bedside table It was Vaughn’s

I threw off the cover, snatched the book in es froathered at e Suc

h anger A venom that poisoned me with hate

I couldn’t h I couldn’t make them any smaller I couldn’t make the traces of him disappear

I collapsed on the bed

“It wasn’t a con” I breathed “It wasn’t a con” The whisper didn’t sound like my own voice

My heart beat was erratic I had to get out of this bed I needed air

I pulled on a T-shirt and a pair of pajah a zip-up hoodie and headed onto the balcony It was cold

It was here on the roof I’d first felt it Undeniable love Unquestionable sexual chee

Why? Why did he do it? Why get in so deep?

My head hurt My whole body hurt