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Chapter Four

Harlow

I stood atcake batter toto Lisa tell o to this Christ to face everyone, and answer their questions and see their sadness and try to explain myself and -

“Harlow!” Lisa pretty ers in front ofto me?”

Dragging ive her my full attention Easier said than done these days My attention didn’t want to be on anything these days; it wanted to sink as far into obscurity as it could

“Sorry, honey Can you say that again?” Lisa deservedof remorse hit me I’ll do better

She sighed in the way an adult sighs It was so Lisa; so grown up for a child, but then again she was e Her e at theif you knehy”

More remorse hit me and I switched the beater off so I could focus coe?”

“So many ways!” Her voice rose and her eyes widened as she detailed it for me Lisa loved Scott like a father and I could see how concerned she was for hio out for dinner every Thursday night? The last couple of weeks he’s been telling me you’re not well so you couldn’t make it to dinner, but you’re not sick, even I can tell that And apart frohts, I’ve hardly seen him but then this week, I’ve seen hi a lot, and I mean, a lot Scott hardly talks, so it’s weird”

My hand went to my chest to hold the heaviness there Scott He didn’t deserve any of this My inability to deal withhim as much, if not more, than the loss of our baby And as much as I knew this, and felt it – oh God, how I felt it – I couldn’t bring h this in any other way than I was

“So?” Lisa put her hand on her hip and looked up at me expectantly Her look said that she expected me to have the answers for her

“What has he been saying?” I didn’t have the answers for her because Scott and I hadn’t been connecting In fact, it see more to her than me at the moment, and I was interested to hear what he’d said

She opened her mouth to speak, but Scott entered the kitchen at that moment and the sound of his heavy boots on the wood floor and his intense presence filled the roo both of us His eyes were focused on hme, at the way his stare deed in him