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“That’s not a fucking answer, Madison Tell me why”

Fucked I was fucked, this situation was fucked, and I wondered if J and I were fucked Again

Resent flared in me I stood and came face to face with him “Have you ever made a mistake in your life that you felt like you couldn’t come back from?”

“Yes” That was all he said, but it was enough for me to run with

“I don’t know if I can come back from e did to Rob,” I admitted Finally It had taken me years to say those words

He looked confused “You haven’t had a drink in over two years, and then today you get drunk Because of Rob?”

I shook my head “Today wasn’t because of Rob directly, but can’t you see, J? Everything bad that has happened since then has been because we killed him”

“I killed hi”

“You only killed hi We broke up I dated Nix And the shit we’re in now is because of all that!” I laid it all out for him Why couldn’t he see it?

“Babe, your thinking is fucked up I get what you’re saying, but it’s fucked up Everything in life has a consequence If we all started analysing shit like you are, we’d all be screwed”

“Alcohol takes away the shittiness I feel intiht it all back to me today In answer to your question, that’s why,” I threw at him

“Not fucking good enough, babe You could have coh - ”

I cut hiet it; he probably never would “I don’t want to talk about it, J! Talking doesn’t solve anything; the probleo away just because we talked about it”

He was pacing now, and running his hands o to bed This is obviously not the right time for us to discuss this,” he said

“Yeah, e discuss it again, perhaps you can start talking about your shit too!” I yelled, and turned to go to bed