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She held up her hands “Okay, okay So, what’s your plan? Do you want to move in here with us until you sort yourself out? I know your father would love to have you here”
“He’s got a funny way of showing it He bit my head off yesterday”
“He is very stressed at thewith Nix Honey, he has been worried about you and yeah, pissed off with you He just wanted you hoht it He and Scott have been constantly arguing about you and I’ve got to say, it’s been pretty hard living with him the last little while So, I am really happy you are home”
“What do youno clue what she could possibly mean
“Your father would have just co would have stopped hiued that it had to be your decision He understands how hard it has been for you, and he was so proud of you for quitting drinking; he just didn’t want you to go backwards”
Well, fuck me Scott was actually onwork them out,” I said, totally exasperated with it all
“Join the club, but I’ll tell you one thing, and you make sure you listen closely Scott and your father love you and will do anything for you This vendetta against Nix started after he beat you, and it has only gotten worse since then It has put a lot of pressure on Storm and they have copped that For you So, you need to cut theainst them”
“The probleive me the full story You knohat they are like”
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p; She cut me off, “Yes, I know exactly what they are like, Madison, but the difference between you andthey are doing is for us and for the club I don’t need to know the details but you see And you haven’t ever given them your complete trust Dare I say it, but I think that’s where a lot of your problems with J come from too; you didn’t trust him”
“How can I trust any of theued
My rown up with that toldfrustrated with me “Honey, it’s their way The club way It’s what their fathers did and their fathers before them probably; it’s all they’ve ever known and it is drilled into them when they join What happens in the club stays in the club And if you can’t live with that you should never date another ain”
My natural reaction to all of this would nor but I decided that perhaps it was ti this life for a long ti these ways for so long and it had gotten me nowhere So, I took a deep breath and asked her a question “How do you live with the shit that goes on? How do you deal, knohat Dad is capable of?”
She didn’t skip a beat, “We’re all capable of bad stuff, Maddy, but the shit they do is done for a reason We’ve got a lifestyle that needs protecting, and your Dad and the boys aren’t afraid to protect it and us I deal with that by choosing to love your father unconditionally and I ies for it When you really love a person you trust the they do” She cocked her head and gaveback with J? Is that what all this is about?”
“I don’t knohat is happening with J What I do know is that I need to find a way to be okay hat they do” And yeah, I also needed to decide if I wanted to be with J again but I was keeping that to myself for now