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I hate him

I hate him I hate him I hate him!

Those words are a lie I don’t hate him

I love him

But I will never say the words out loud I’ll never allow ain The words are toxic and lead to nothing but pain

I pull his ar to spend the rest of the night fucking—no, h, neither of us will use that word to describe this

I can love histon can never know Ihi I could never inflict on hie eventually dissolves—that’s the only way to not hurt him

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I leave Liesel snoring in bed I don’t want to leave her, but I should check on Maxwell And there is no room service in this hotel, so I have to venture out for coffee and breakfast anyway—and new clothes since ours are ripped I don’t care if Maxwell lived or died last night; I just need to ensure that he’s still in the baseo tell Corbin where we are My need to protect Liesel and my kids trumps my ache to stay in bed with Liesel and watch her wake up in my arms

The sun hasn’t even risen yet as I sto but et back to Liesel as soon as I can Hopefully, she won’t wake up until I return

My ht Every position we fucked in Every sound she hts spun between fear and soure out

The fear is what fucked me up the most She’s afraid, terrified her demons will return with me like I’m sure they have with every otherup control to me Afraid I’ll fall in love with her and hurt her That’s the one thing she’ll never have to worry about—I won’t be falling in love with Liesel Dunn

When I get to the sht where I left him

He groans and looks up at me