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“Baby, I want to see him too, but he needs to be put in the incubator We need to ently, but I only sob harder, clinging to hi from his eyes

“That’s our baby I want to ston’s neck as he co form I try desperately to draw co I need toripped away fro severed

What felt like only moments was really hours when I woke up in the hospital, ready to give birth Blacking out is the last thing I can recall before waking up in extre prepped to deliver All because a small manila paper with just a few sentences and an impact of a thousand arone, still living, but still an ihtmare I ran froible reality

I can’t believe he’s free already, that he now has the power to get toorder, protection order, all that shit is nothing to his he was capable of, felt the wrath of what he can do Now my son is here, and more than my safety, I fear for his Princeton is mine to protect, and when Joel was locked up

and just amoment But now that he’s free and has the power to not only hurt me, but to hurt my child—it’s a fresh slap to my face

As they leave the rooible fear evenus in this rooet here? What was hours that felt like minutes, now turns into seconds that feel like decades away from my son

The pit of loneliness and fear creeps in as Iin this hospital roo poked and prodded as I beco seems desolate; a void deep inco back in at once, the pain, the fear, the bla out my insides

Hoill I go forhen I just hit a landslide?

My son I need my son

It was all a blur tonight Lana falling intoher li her water break as Jeff called 911 I couldn’t do anything but panic It became clear she passed out and was quickly sent into premature labor

Being rushed through theand just now starting to catch up Lana crashed after the medicine kicked in and I haven’t left her side Jeff and Becky ith Trey and Shayla to get soht fucking here withI want to do I saw the terror in her eyes when they took away our son And I know daone, which will throw her into another fit

I understand I want to get us to the incubator so we can see him, but we aren’t allowed to yet, and I ait until Lana wakes up to go with her Until then, I have aThe doctor letin his development, so they don’t believe he will need to be in the incubator for long Which has been the best news to receive I just wish Lana ake to hear it Maybe it would help her anxiety settle

I hate the reasonlike a strong little warrior, and Lana a wreck over not being able to touch and see our baby—is over Joel Lana was sent into labor because of that fucking letter Joel is out; he’s no longer behind bars The day snuck up on us, most likely because we’ve been wrapped up in the new house, prepping for baby, and et

His letters stopped, the harassing too, but just knowing now that the only thing keeping hi but a lousy piece of paper puts e I have no doubt I can protect her, but all it takes is one et a hold of her, of our son One little unneeded blink or unexpected turn of my back, and he could have my world and more in his hands

I try my best to not think of that, to not let it eat me up, but it doesn’t work We have a child now, a precious life I have to fucking protect This also presents a whole new list of setbacks for Lana I was prepared for her to be taken aback a little when he was released, but if it was any indication of what’s to coht, her setback may be a complete bulldozer to her walls

“Kings?”