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But now all I can ask is why have I been having these thoughts about her? Why is it that she went froht?

The way she fills out that jersey nos my mind, and causes me to jam my hand in my pants pocket and audibly fiddle withto conceal my need for the school’s star forward on the soccer team

It’s her last year before e to study medicine She wants to help people…and I want to help myself to her

But this is wrong, so wrong This is the girl I watched lose her first tooth, get braces, and then get her braces taken off I was there when she got a tricycle for Christmas, then a real bike When her dad propelled her forith his hand on the back of her seat years later when she got her first theel bike, I was the one five feet ahead ready to catch her if she wobbled

But now, I’m the one who’s all wobbly whenever I’m in her presence

I never had a thing for her Never She was just a kid, so shy, small, and innocent She’s always been that hich is why, all those years ago, her parents started her in kindergarten one year later than most other kids But that’s all different now She was forced to grow up this past suain so da She deserves her childhood I shakemyself she’s not a child anymore

She’s eighteen She can vote She can buy cigarettes, even though she never sn countries

But she can’t be ht

When the school asked me to move up from assistant coach to head coach after her dad was killed I told them I had to think about it Head coach was my buddy’s role A part of me didn’t want to be with the team anymore How could I step into ht about what he’d want, and when his daughter asked me, told me it was okay, I had to say yes

And now here I a s can’t continue No, I have to keep denying myself what I really want

It could ruin my reputation and hers…that’s the truth

But the real truth is I’m in love with her There are no if’s, and’s, or but’s about it We should just stay friends, but whenever I think about that it just ry

We can’t just be friends We need to be more than that I’m more than her dad’s best friend now, or at least I want to be I want to be her everything, and that’s what I’ve been trying to do