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Reading theave me more questions for Luca that he never wanted to answer, and that only upset s for Luca lessened a little ton’s eured the only way I could truly find that happiness ith Luca
But I wasn’t so sure he was right
With each passing day—and Luca never once tellingthat the only reason Luca wantedman It made me think of our relationship before he’d cheated, and I started questioning everything until I didn’t know if I was co
Had Luca ever really been in love with me? He’d always said I was his soulmate, the other half of himself that he couldn’t live without But he’d never once tried to touch estively now If he’d wanted me even half as much as I wanted him, there was no way he could have kept his hands to himself
Right?
Maybe he had lovedlove I’d felt It didn’t rip his soul from his body when he lost me His heart still beat in his chest, whereas ed my life
Growing up, I’d been Luca’s best friend, second to no one Just as he’d been mine Not even Shaw could take his place back then That friendship had deepened on both our parts, but I didn’t think it became for him what it became for me I’d only been Luca Thornton’s favorite toy He’d been possessive and overprotective ofme, but not in love with me When it came down to it, he was able to tearto him
There was love, and then there was the love I’d had for Luca, and there was no way he’d felt what I was feeling
Just as he couldn’t possibly feel it now
And that hurt More than anything, it hurt because I wanted him to love me like that
I wanted him to love me like I’d once loved him
Like I still loved him
At first, when that realization had hitdisloyal to Reton But the more I read his emails to Luca, the more I realized it hat he wanted for ether, I’d lovedin me He knew that But he also knew that I’d pushed downit so we could be happy without the ghost of what I felt for so our happiness
It had taken a little while, but I’d unburied that love for Luca, and it was consu me once more
I couldn’t tell hih Not when he wouldn’t even tell me he loved me