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Chapter 40

Violet

Nevaeh had a really great OB-GYN taking care of her, and I was able to get an appointton ithmy best friend with me, but I’d kind of wanted this appointment to be just the two of us When I mentioned that, he said he needed me to have someone else at every appointment with us

Just in case

He didn’t have to explain what he meant by that I knew, and it broke my heart even more

Just in case he wasn’t around for the delivery of our baby

Just in case soht our child into the world

Just in case, so I wouldn’t be alone if he was gone and I went into labor

I agreed with hi run to cry How could I be so fucking happy and so da of how joyous it was going to be to hold our sweet, innocent little baby Love and cuddle him or her and smother them with all my love While simultaneously so brokenhearted and afraid, it hurt to breathe when I looked at my husband?

Since he’d confessed his illness tomore attention And in just a few short days, I’d learned the signs of when he was having a headache I knehen they would get intense because his eyes would glaze over with pain I didn’t understand how I’d , but now that I knew, I couldn’t help how

“Thanks for inviting me,” Shaw said as the three of us sat in the doctor’s office I was on the exaown that opened in the front with a soft sheet over, while Shaw sat in one of the two chairs by the

My husband was distracted today, but when I looked in his eyes, I didn’t see the pain I’d co me he was lost in his own head, but I didn’t knoas on his mind

“Actually,” I said with a s that you’ll want to come with us to more than just this visit Maybe even take a few Lamaze classes with me?”

“Uether in surprise “I’ll come to as many as I can if you want My schedule is kind of crazy the next few h”

I turned ether He lifted our joined hands to his lips, kissing ertips, but still lost in his oorld I sed the lu odmother”