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“I should have talked to you,” I whispered, feeling guilty that he’d had to hear as going on in irlfriend instead of him
“Aye, you should have I felt like so stomach ‘I hate the way I feel about myself when I’m with him’ That’s what you said”
Tears of anguish filled my eyes “Nate, I’m sorry I said that, I didn’t mean—“
“You did mean it,” he choked out before I could say another word “Because that’s how I’ve made you feel”
For a e I needed Finally, I just forced the question out “Why?”
He understood what I was asking and shrugged sadly “I’ve felt lost since Peetie died”
“Our probleot worse when he died”
“We didn’t have probleot our kids, and we both have jobs that take up way tootime So we let our relationship slide by the wayside for a tih it before But ays say enough is enough and find our way back to each other”
Anger flushed through me “But you have never shut me out emotionally before Even ere too busy to sit and have a long chat or pay for a hotel room on our lunch hour for hot sex, ays had affection and openness You don’t touch o to sleep”
Nate flinched, theas he looked away
“Have you met someone else?” The words were out before I could stop them
I wished I’d stopped them
The look my husband threw me could have felled a lion Furious, he threw off the duvet and launched hiside it, then turned to face er scorch my skin
“See,” he said, his voice hoarse “When I heard you say that to Jo yesterday, I wanted to putthe night, I talked myself into the idea that you’d only voiced unbelievable, fucking stupid shit like that because you were emotional!”
I winced at his shout and hissed, “Do not wake the girls”
His hands curled into fists at his side “Liv,” he warned
My ansas to get out of bed and face him with the mammoth bit of furniture between us “It is not stupid of nize asabout someone else I know you would never cheat That doesn’t s for and are confused over It wouldis better than the idea that you are no longer attracted to me and have fallen out of love with me”
Nate stared at hhow could you think any of that?”
He was hurt Deeply And it gaveinsane, Nate I feel like you’re athat up in my head”
“Do you really hate who you are when you’re withdefeated
“I don’t like how insecure I feel right now I don’t like that I’ ways to bla in front ofbecause I feel fat, unattractive, and old, and wondering if my hot husband sees me the same way That isn’t the kind of rolefortyto do with it, but not all Because if you were my Nate, the Nate I married, I would feel beautiful and sexual and needed and wanted And I can’t go on feeling invisible around you”
He crossed his ar you’re thinking about leaving me?”
“Are you saying I’er needed and wanted?”
“I love you!” he suddenly roared and I flinched “I lostway! Where’sroasting e months after my friend dies!”
In that ot about our kids and I yelled back “Cam didn’t shut Jo out! He turned to her! Because that’s what ic happens, you turn to the person you love, Nate! You don’t turn away from them So don’t stand there and turn this all on e, Nate? What does it say?!”
“So you want to leave ive up! Because that’s what it sounded like yesterday! Go then Pack your fucking bags and go! But the girls stay with me!”
Agonizing pain and fury led “You son of a bitch”