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I want to throttle her, but , I want to kiss her

So I do

Chapter 10

Gracen

Heat

Flooding through my entire body as Marek's mouth slams down on mine

This man I've kissed a thousand ti of sorts

But this is different Nothing like I've ever felt from Marek before

Lust and desire pour through me, mixed with a river of fear because I can still feel the fury rolling off of Marek in waves as he kisses me

Hatea word for the way he feels, but there is no tenderness or fondthis brutal kiss

No, he's bruising ry at me

I know thisthis For giving in to the sa as well No way to separate the bad feelings froether, and I accept them

My hands go tentatively to his shoulders and I tilt roans in response, accepting my capitulation It's an aniainst the wall of the living room

I don't think for onehim for the same reasons

I kiss hi him Even when he broke my heart and left me in ruins, so utterly alone and abandoned, I never once turned my heart away from e had There was no way I could, especially after Lilly was born and I realized everything that was good and beautiful about her was half of Marek's doing Despite Marek choosing another life over me, I never let my heart harden, because other than his wretchedly selfish choice, he's been the best thing to ever happen to et a chance at only once in this lifetime

Sure, I'd co and perhaps only meant to be so I could have Lilly But it was real, and so purely ive it up, even as I watched him walk away from me

"Christ, this is insane," Marek ue is pushing back up against th of hiainst my belly

An ache fors, and my hands slap his ass to try to press hihtly, then grinding his cock right against my mound

I see stars behindmoan of need that escapes fro to otten

Forgotten because his kiss is like s he did to ether I want it too badly to push him away, and it shames me

"God, you taste good," Marek ainst my lips, then drops his forehead to mine My heart swells over his adhtly and his eyes pierce right through ue"

"Marekdon't," I start to beseech hi my hands up to his face My atte a step back

"I'h with confusion "I want to forgive you And I'ry all the time and I--"

So inside of me cracks Yes, I still love this man, and because he's Lilly's father, I alill But I'm done

"I' to say this once more, Marek," I tell hied with co "I' you about Lilly"

Marek's lips flatten to a grio frosty A tiny muscle twitches in his jaw

"With h you left me behind, I should have told you It was cruel and selfish, and I can't ever ht So I'm sorry"

His expression re to me

"But I'izing to you You won't hear it again froure a way to ood parents for Lilly That's what's most important"

He stares at ive him one in return before I step toward the staircase, but not before I tell hi

"I had a job interview thisat the hospital," I tell him softly "My references checked out and they called to offer me the job this afternoon I know it's because Josie put in a personal word forin two days"

"Congratulations," he says flatly

"I' to look for a place for Lilly andI had considered, but didn't decide for sure until he pulled away frousted him