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"Okayjust holler if you need anything," the nurse says with a s "I'll check back in a little bit"

"I can't believe how sick you got yesterday," Sutton says "I'm so sorry I wasn't there"

"Oh, stop it," I gru me vomit"

Stevie had taken er than today's, as I got both Rituxin and bendamustine, and it took almost five hours for those concoctions to drip into my veins Today's treat, but the pisser is that this is the drug that made me sick yesterday Dr Yoffman didn't seeet really sick He did increase ave me an infusion of them via IV before they started the treatment

Sutton is on cheazines for us to read Instead, they've lain untouched because I ended up dozing for a bit I' I did yesterday

I still can't believe Garrett came over I so didn't want him to see that I so didn't want hi was over because it definitely exceeded his timetable

When he had texted , I didn't respond because the nurse was at that verya needle inbetter to do than listen to Stevie gossip, because I didn't want to encourage him I knew I'd be out of commission for a few days, and the farther Garrett stayed away, the better

But then he texted ot all squishy because it was clear he still had an interest in me, and God help meI'm totally into hiiddiness that I'd see hiain

But only after I h these two che sickness Dr Yoff normal within a few days of the last treatment

Needless to say, when Garrett showed up at etting hiht, but then those fucking dry heaves started again And afterwardas I lay on the bathroo in two, and another wave of nausea rolling through th to keep my secret anymore

He igged out No doubt about that The look on his face said it all Horrified and angry

I haven't seen or heard fro a little better, having successfully kept the medication down I stumbled out into the kitchen and ate a few dry crackers, drank some more Gatorade, and fell back asleep I stayed under untilready for my next chemo visit

Sutton picks up one of the h it distractedly I pull the one blanket the nurse had given s up underneath me They have these really cool recliners the patients sit in that are spread around a large, airy rooe plants sit everywhere and soft round By my count, there are thirteen other patients in this roos

Some of them look pale, sick, and wasted away So There's quiet talking, so, and one patient sits with her husband, who cries softly by her side Cancer has soout

Sutton closes the h

"Nothing good in there?" I ask as I nod toward the gossip rag

"It's not that," she says distractedly

"Then what is it?"

"I think I really messed up," she murmurs with pain-filled eyes

"Okaywhat did you do to Alex, and I'll tell you how to fix it," I tell her with a smirk

"It's not Alex," she says quietly "It's Garrett"

"Garrett?" I ask stupidly, because what could she have possibly done to that cocky ht with soup, and that he nohat's going on with me She didn't say much, and, now that I think about it, it was uncharacteristic of her to remain quiet She's always been vocal about Garrett She loves him to death, but she also doesn't think he has ive him hell about it

"He cahtafter he found out you have cancer," she says, her eyes cast down to her lap while she fiddles with the hem of her shirt "He was pissed"

"Pissed no one told hiuess

She nods "I said sos to hiured he would be getting bored and would leave you in the dust right about now I think I hurt his feelings"

I can feel Sutton's guilt and I end up taking it on as ht, I probably should have told him It would have been easier because he could have ation to me I should have told him before we had sex, because that's such an intimate actneveronly a one-night stand

"Hey," I say, getting her attention Her eyes raise up and I give her a confident s him in the dark"

"Think he'll accept it?" she asks dubiously "He was really angry"

I shrug "That's up to him All we can do is offer it BesidesI'm pretty sure that now that he knows, his interest into be so keen I meanants to be with someone with cancer?"

Sutton leans forward in the chair that sits opposite froht you soup"

"When he thought I had the flu," I point out

"He stayed there and took care of you Held your head while you vomited," she says