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“Go away, Cash Please, just go away”
Cash rerowl, heher damp hair away from her cheek
“I’ht it would be easier for you to deal with if you saw it like it was”
“Ripping a band-aid off?” she asked sarcastically
Cash winced “Yeah I’ to lie and pretend I don’t like the life I lead, or that I live it because I’m fucked-up I’m not I like to fuck, and I like to fuck a lot I like sex, the raunchier the better I could have hidden it from you, pretended that part of my life never happened, but the truth would have eventually come out”
Rachel buried her face back in the dog’s fur
His hand slid to the back of her neck, lifting her face to his “I haven’t fucked another woman since you saith Bliss”
Her suspicious gaze didn’t shy away from his
“It’s the truth I haven’t really wanted anyone since I ith you at your house I wasn’t ready to accept that you got under h I like to say that your brothers are slow The truth is, I was slow in ad that it wasin love with you I didn’t care if you wore a trench coat tonight, only that you were there, with me”
“Go back” She s I saw there tonight I wouldn’t want to”
“I didn’t show you so that you would participate; I showed you because I didn’t want any secrets between us I like the Friday parties, but if you don’t want to go, that’s cool” Cash tried to make her see she had all the choices
She raised her face fro “Do Lily and Beth and the others?”
He wanted to respect their privacy, but he needed to tell Rachel the truth “Yes They found the part that they enjoy and leave the part they don’t alone Tell the truth, Rachel Be honest to both of us Did you find the whole thing upsetting? There wasn’t one thing you found arousing?”
“No”
Cash took hope that she sounded unsure It was her first experience with their lifestyle None of his brothers’ wives had taken it any better when they had found out
“That’s okay,” he assured her,his ar, but she sank against hi her absorb everything she had learned
“I don’t know,” her voice was quiet in the darkness, “if I can get over the fact you’ve had sex with all my friends”
“I haven’t had sex with any of your friends,” he denied “Cheryl isn’t your friend I haven’t fucked Lily, Beth, Diamond, or Winter”
“Willa?” He caught a faint trace of amusement in her voice
“Nope”
“Melody Ward?”
“Who?”
“My best friend in high school”
“Her, I fucked, but she doesn’t count,” Cash stated, refusing to let her pull away
“Why in the hell doesn’t she count? She was my best friend!”
“Because I didn’t knoas going to be courting with you then! I’ve fucked around, okay?” Cash said, frustrated, raking his hands through his long hair “If I kneas going to be with you, then I could have done things differently, but back then, she was just another girl”
“You don’t remember her?”
“No!”
She looked at him suspiciously “Does it count if you don’t remember them?”
Cash thought she was talking to herself and kept histhat question with a ten-foot pole
She must have answered it for herself because she laid her head on his shoulder While the dog gave him an unhappy look, he brushed histo hi hands with the dog lying beside them
After a while, a shadowtoward Rachel’s honized Tate as he left the and why he hadn’t tried to keep him fro from him
“How are we going to get back?” Rachel asked sleepily
Cash pulled out his cell phone “Rider, sorry to interrupt, but could you pick us up at the botto up when Rider said he would be there in ten minutes
Stiffly getting to his feet, he helped Rachel up
“Go ho trotted off toward the Porters’ home
“Whose dog is it?” Cash asked
Rachel sighed “It’s technically Tate’s dog”
Cash hid his relief He didn’t dislike dogs; he just thought they should be dog-size, not horse-size