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Ryan: As soon as I told her, I felt it I’m done with her Over her Coht now, because I can feel a gaping hole in h for you Maybe it’s not enough that I want to be the person who cooks you dinner every night and wakes up next to you every day Maybe it’s not enough that I want to watch your design company take off, and teach you to surf, and race you around the park Maybe it’s not enough that you’reperson in the world But you are And I want all that When I see s I want I want to do ink, I want to see the world, and I want you

“Ryan said sohtens

“No” I bite my lip

“You have a look”

“I do not”

“Like you’re thinking about going back”

“No” Kind of I… I want to talk to him I want to wrap my arms around him I want to collapse in his bed

Our bed

I want everything to be ours again

But I need him to be mine

“You sure?” Dean asks “You look like it”

I want to, but I can’t I need to be home I need to be safe I need Ryan to love me I can’t have the latter So I’ll have to take the first two “I’m exhausted”

“So crawl into bed, whisper I love you, I’m sorry, and collapse”

I shake my head

“He loves you, Leigh You two are the only people who don’t see it”