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I try to reason with the goddamn comforter It’s my body and my life I can ruin it if I want I can leave my favorite person in the world if I want

I can run away from the rejection that awaits me tomorrow if I want

Yeah, I’ain

But at least this time I know it

This ti he’ll change

I find my suitcase in the closet Toss it on top of that stupid pineapple bedspread Pour my entire underwear drawer into it

My dress tugs at my hips

The right strap slips off my shoulder

This is not how I’m supposed to undress

This is not how I’ht

This is not how I’m supposed to lose Ryan

Is it really him?

Or is it so?

A sob rises into choke it back

Ryan doesn’t love me And I’m tipsy in our hotel rooht