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He wanted to believe he had the right intention How could it be wrong towanted this?

But perhaps they were right Were they? Wasn’t he supposed to question it all? They’d all done so before What made this different?

When Nathan didn’t respond, Dr Green threw up his hands He snatched hisoff the desk without the laptop and he went to the door “If I didn’t love the hell out of you, Nathan, I’d kill you Now I have to go find Kota and figure out where the hell we are now Hopefully he didn’t say anything to Sang about this yet” He slammed the door on his way out

North still had his back turned on Nathan Nathan relared at the notebook at his feet

Was he right? Sang wasn’t going to be okay with this unless they were all sure and okay with it?

Eventually North spoke It wasn’t the sa sad, dark and it hurt Nathanelse just froether if she’s not with us,” he said He turned slowly, his eyes glistening and his face contorted “Do you get it now? Without herthis is over We’re too far in”

“You’d leave if she won’t stay?”

“She won’t stay if we can’t do this” He turned to the door and opened it, glaring out into the hallway “She’ll do it to spare us It’ll just kill us” He walked out, closing the door behind him

Nathan slid down against the wall, practically hiding behind the desk He rolled his head back, glaring at the ceiling He inhaled in a long breath, holding it enough until his lungs burned before releasing

He did it again

And again Causing his already high heart rate to increase, his lungs to ache His body was tight, tense

He couldn’t get them to understand He’d done it to be sure For her sake He needed to know

What he hadn’t realized hat they’d told him

She wasn’t sure

Because they weren’t totally together on it Kota Himself Perhaps a couple of others The doubt woven around them all

Compounded by Erica and her questions

It would just get worse

Would she leave?

But he knew that answer Sang would do whatever she could to ensure they were all happy and safe, like they tried to do for her If it meant she left so they could find some sort of happiness without her, she would

He didn’t need to be the reason

When in Doubt, Doubt

Nathan avoided the others all afternoon No one conored him, but he sensed they all knew

He didn’t get a chance to see Sang before he left in the afternoon before school was over He’d asked Kota to take Danielle and Marie home

He took Silas’s car home He really needed his own car He sent a text to Silas to let him know, and to feel free to pick it up later

He told Mr Blackbourne in a text he wasn’t feeling great It was a bad ti crashed in a car into the lake the night before warranted a little down time

He just didn’t want to be around the others right now

Not with the way they looked at him

Maybe he was more paranoid, but he couldn’t help it He was in his own head, consumed by what Dr Green had said, but mostly about what North said at the end

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