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But I’ to it

Any psychologist worth hisI have with Mac, because I’ive in to it

I’d have to agree

I try oneand no questions “I’ht I can’t cancel But then I’ll be over to your apartment after ”

The minute the words are out of my mouth, I know they are not well received Still, I’m a little surprised when she says, “Then I’m sorry, Matt This freak of a fk show is over ”

“What?” I ask in confusion, because I thought we’d just fight soreat makeup sex I mean, Mac likes it as much as I do

“You heard me,” she says with finality “I can’t do this anynation, you have it Just let me know If not, I’ll show up and do my job well But as far as you and I are concerned… we’re done ”

What The Fuck?

I stare at her in disbelief, trying to call her bluff My conscience is telling ive in, to tell her the truth about Lorraine… that it’s just a business dinner My conscience is also telling me to tell her about Cal About how black his soul is and if she doesn’t want to be with me, at least don’t be with him He’ll hurt her I know it, and I don’t want that to happen

I plead with her… with s It stays shut, because I’m still controlled by my past I’m convinced, if I let her in… just a tiny bit more… I’ll crack wide open and beco these steel walls around me, and I can’t open them back up… not for anyone Certainly not for a woman I’ve barely known for a feeeks

I Just Can’t Do It

So, I just stare at her and I watch the deteraze solidify It’s done I’ve lost her

Mac turns around and walks out of lance

For the third tie Lorraine’s hand She’s been painfully flirting withto put her off by extoling Mac’s virtues I know she doesn’t like Ma

c and theto flirt with me

Not that it’s a chore to talk about Mac’s great virtues, but I will ado inht… or any night thereafter

And the insane thing about that?

I knew that was going to happen when I refused to just tell her the fking truth I kneas driving her away